Well, as you can see from the title, this is not going to be my most cheery post.
Yeah. NaNoWriMo. It’s over! But it did not work in my favor…
I didn’t do awfully. In fact, I totaled 30,466 words, which is nothing to sneeze at. Plus, I really like my story and, although it needs a lot of work, I think it has a lot of potential to turn into something real.
I’m disappointed in myself, definitely, and there’s just no getting around that. I lost NaNo last year, and this year, I was sure I could beat it, get that 50k. And honestly, in the first 12 days, it was within my reach. I was actually ahead. Afterwards? I hit a rut. A huge, all-consuming rut that I couldn’t pull myself out of. For the remainder of month, I would only right 11,000 more words.
What went wrong? I’m not entirely sure. A lot. A little. However, if there’s one thing this NaNo round has taught me, it’s this: you need people.
You need a support system. Whether it be friends or family, that are going to push you to keep going, even when you want to stop, even when you feel like an awful writer, even when you’re positive that you can’t do it. I didn’t really have that.
I mean, sure, twitter was a blast. The sprints were what kept me going half the time, not to mention a great source of procrastination, but it’s not the same. I told my family about it and, yeah, they were supportive. But I didn’t get that push that I think I’d only be able to get from fellow writer friends. Maybe next year I’ll get more into the forums, invest time in my community’s write-ins. But, for now, I’m going to rest my fingers because my God are they tired. I’m going to store away my story to look at in a few weeks with new eyes, and I am going to put my NaNo playlist to bed because I’ve heard all those songs enough times to last me the rest of my life.
Because, even though I failed last time around, and this time, one thing will remain true: there’s always next year.
Congrats to all the NaNoWriMo winners out there! YOU DID IT! 50,000 words!
Did you win NaNo? Do you want to crawl under the covers and hide like I do? Tell me in the comments! 🙂